it's enough to leave me crying in the rain

In my dream, we were in biology class. You were wearing a silver sparkly belt, and you looked so beautiful, and I just wanted to tell you all of that. But I chickened out in the end, I didn't say a word, and when the bell rang we got up and went our separate ways.

These dreams break my heart so much, I wish I had more courage so I could go up to you and finally start up a conversation. There is too much space on the internet, I'm just always so scared. I never know the right thing to say. My mind is broken.

Please help me.

listening to: going missing - maximo park

clouds part just to give us a little sun

I bought a new camera!

loved him like a winterbird

Monday is looming closer and closer, creeping like a ninja cat that breaks your camera.

My camera is broken. There's nothing I can do about it. The search for a new camera begins. I feel a bit empty without it ... after all, whenever we hang out, I'm the one holding the camera. I think I might try out our film camera. I love our old photos that we've taken with it. Plus, the case is attached to it, and you can't look back at pictures so I don't have a reason to give it to anyone else. I feel like such an idiot because of all of this.

But anyways. I love Emily Haines' voice, getting lucky on tests, chocolate chip banana bread, and burnt CDs.

listening to: satellite mind - metric

tell me how am i supposed to breathe without air

Gavin, Kevin, Diana, Adrian, and Dillip were trying to fly a kite in Hamptons field, so they invited me out and I met them there. We went to get coffee and cake right at closing, then rented Cloverfield and drove back to Adrian's house to watch it. It's still scary the second time.

You're cute when we play fight.

i can tell that we are going to be friends

A lot of things are happening. Life is going WELL!

But in better detail:
I really loved the extra touches today.
"Siu jie" just sounds better and better each day.
Biology sucks.
Let's get this shit out of the way!

And I didn't intentionally make it rhyme. Which reminds me, I think I may be getting some words strung together .. hopefully a song soon?!
Please?