My day was not good. I actually broke into tears at one point. There is that constant feeling of panic, and it feels like I am hurtling into barriers at such great speed that I don't realize the pain until I take a second and stop, and truly feel the full impact. My body has been trembling uncontrollably at times; the other night I woke up to feel my body convulsing and unable to stop. When is everything going to stop? I can't wait to escape, to get away and forget about life just for eleven days, at least. I can't cope. My day did not feel good because none of my days have been feeling good.
But I am listening to Neko Case, and things feel okay.
listening to: fever - neko case
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