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1. Volunteered at the mainstage at Olympic Plaza, which consisted of sitting by the exit, telling people it was an exit and not an entrance, and getting yelled at by a Native American for not letting him in without a festival pass.
2. HOLY FUCK was .. holy fuck. So good. One of the best live acts ever.
3. Went over to The Loose Moose Theatre with Mikki, and it was surprisingly really good. There are some kids my age who really know how to play guitar and sing.
4. Volunteered at Artlife on Saturday, which consisted of helping put up posters for the poster show and sitting down to listen to some amazing female singers. One of my favorites was Foonyap, who played violin/mandobird (sp?)/sang for Woodpigeon on Thursday. She was so hilarious, and I don't even think she was trying to be. My favorite song by her was the one about falling in love with a bicycle. Followed by the one about falling in love with a robot. The Doer and the Doddler was amazing, actually they all had such beautiful voices that soared and filled up the room and my soul.
5. Ran into Morgan Greenwood at Artlife, he mistakened me for my sister but after we talked for a bit before he went with Knots to go get something to eat. Then I ran into Austin from BRAIDS because Raphie was playing (as INDIENSOCI) but he was about to leave as well. Oh and ran into Katie Lee and she convinced me to try and get into the HiFi to watch BRAIDS play. INDIENSOCI played a sweet pop song as the last song of her set.
6. Walked over to The Palomino for the all-ages show and had a super garlic-y salad. Seriously, there were massive chunks of garlic just there. It burned my mouth and so I couldn't finish it. So a big negative there .. especially since I paid $12.00 for that. Oh but saw Jessica and Arielle there! Had a good lunch with them before Jessica had to go.
7. Brain Fever .. wasn't really my style of music, and when the (small) crowd started moshing, I got kicked in the shin and it hurts. But the band after them was really good .. Keith was playing bass in it!
8. Went to the HiFi alone because Mikki didn't think she could get in, and Kirsten ended up not being able to go. I borrowed my sister's passport and holy crap I was so nervous. The bouncer asked me for a birth certificate, and then I freaked out a little inside and asked if a passport was okay. He said that actually a passport was better than a license, took a good look at the passport and at me, and then let me through. I ran into Robin inside! We talked a lot about the other shows we went to and had a good time.
9. BRAIDS took a while to set up, which sucked a little because their set ended up being so short. They played four songs; three were new and one was Lemonade. It was really great, even though it ended earlier than I thought it would. I really hope they play Calgary in August.
10. Robin and I left after BRAIDS to go to the Warehouse. Got in there as well (thank god I look like my sister), and it was so hot in there. Githead was really good, then HEALTH played and were so energetic. Finally Holy Fuck went on. Robin, Tyler, and I were at the very front and at one point Graham Walsh's bum was right in my face while he was setting up. That's how close were were.
11. Holy Fuck was CRAZY! It was a million times more amazing than at Olympic Plaza because we were all just dancing and it was just the way the music made you feel .. I was just so happy the whole time they were playing. There were a lot of moshers so I kept having to push back using the stage just so I could stand straight, and it was so hot and sweaty but I loved it. And then I shook Brian Borcherdt's hand after the set. What a great way to end the festival.

i sampled my voice

1. Front row, almost directly in front of Final Fantasy. He was funny, charming, and such a talented musician. He played The Sea, The Butcher, Many Lives --> 49MP, Flare Gun, He Poos Clouds, and This Lamb Sells Condos along with many new songs. He then came back for an encore and giddily played What Do You Think Will Happen Next when somebody requested it, and The CN Tower Belongs To The Dead. He set up by himself so "even if you thought the set was bad, at least you can't call him lazy!" And showed us the sampling he did of his voice on his keyboard when trying to find the right setting. I want to be his friend so badly!
2. Lined up for the Knots/Rural Alberta Advantage/Woodpigeon/Mount Eerie show way too early, but met a guy who was really cool and interesting to talk to. It turned out that he used to play for The Grim Beat.
3. Because I lined up so early, I was first in the church and I got a spot front and center. Dead center.
4. Knots' voice is really good, I think he was a bit nervous though because he kept messing up his guitar playing.
5. Rural Alberta Advantage! I had never heard them but they were really good. I love a good drum beat, it's even better when there are two going on at once.
6. Woodpigeon also rocked, I love their harmonies and when whistling gets looped!
7. Everyone was waiting for Mount Eerie because he had never played in Calgary before. He has a really, really nice voice. It's smooth and raw and just so genuine. He is also a really funny guy, who talked about Michael Jackson and ended the show exactly when it was supposed to end.
8. My exams are done! And I finished with a 92 in calculus so things are fine.

listening to: willow tree - chad vangaalen

quenching your curiosity

Would the 10 year old you be happy to see where you're at today?

I'm more or less the same person as I was seven years ago.

What did you last write an essay on?

Truth and idealism.

Is there anything you keep forgetting to do?

Yeah .. which is why I owe so many people so much money.

If you were kicked out of your current house, where would you go?

Mikalina's house, most likely.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

Lots.

Are you looking forward to anything?

Yes!

Is there any boy or girl worth fighting for?

He's worth it, but I'm not fighting for him.

Would you rather have knowledge or wisdom?

Wisdom is utilizing knowledge, so I would rather have wisdom.

If you could see any band in concert, who would it be?

Hmm there are a lot of bands I would want to see. But if it was ANY band, I would want to see Broken Social Scene. Full lineup. With Chad VanGaalen opening because that would rule so hard.

Do happy endings exist in your world?

The only happy ending is death.

Do you learn from your mistakes or find yourself constantly repeating them?

I think I learn from my mistakes.

Do you believe that all members of the opposite sex are basically the same?

No, everybody is unique.

Admit it, you love postsecret.com, don’t you?

I do love it.

What is one quality that you really appreciate in a person?

I really love people who can say the things you need to hear at the right time.

At the good old general store, what particular kind of candy would you expect to be in the big jar at the counter?

Those Coca Cola candies. I'm not really a big fan of candy in general.

What's the most messed up food combination that you've had that was actually good?

I don't necessarily mix up my food.

What's something that always makes you feel better about yourself?

Hugs.

Do you feel more comfortable, in general, in the presence of males or females?

I feel more comfortable around certain people, regardless of gender.

What is your biggest annoyance about the people that go to your school?

So much drama.

What compliments do you receive most often regarding your physical appearance?

My hair. Although I just cut it!

What song describes you perfectly?

The Season by The Dodos.

Do you find out who is knocking before you actually open the door?

Yeah, there is a window on my door.

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?

If I was holding hands with them, I was probably really comfortable with that person .. so I would, on the cheek.

If you were a doll, the accessories packaged with me would be?

Sunglasses, coloured pants, and shoes.

I have a fear of:

Falling down stairs.

Has a girl sat on your bed before?

Yes.

Who is the funniest person you know?

Gah so many to choose from

Are you afraid to grow up?

Not really, it's inevitable.

What is your worst subject in school?

Biology, hands down.

Have you ever been around someone who was high?

Probably.

What is something you wish you had more of?

Time and understanding.

When was the last time you cried?

Probably a couple weeks ago .. I hit a real low.

Last person you saw other than your family?

Er .. my extended family. Other than that, my manager.

Do you wash your hair in the shower?

Yeah, it's easier than in the sink.

Do you have someone who you can completely be yourself around?

There are some people I am so myself around that it's almost embarassing.

Are you usually the first to say you're sorry in a fight or last?

It depends on what we are fighting about.

Anything you want to say to someone?

There are lots of things I want to say to someone.

Honestly how many people have you truly fallen for?

One.

How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average?

On average, zero. Point one.

Do you think you could forgive someone who murdered your family?

Negatory.

What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?

Love.

If you could pack up and move away right now, would you?

No, I love my family.

How was your day?

Long. Also, a lot of people asked me that today.

What's your current problem?

There is not enough time to balance golf and friends. Also, I haven't really studied for my calculus exam yet.

Do you have a best friend?

Yes.

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?

Whatevs.

Does someone have a crush on you?

That is doubtful.

Do you and your best friend have a song?

Chad VanGaalen is pretty much the soundtrack to our friendship.

Have you ever done anything illegal?

Yes but it wasn't that illegal haha.

Was your new years enjoyable?

I'm pretty sure it was.

Who was the last person to play with your hair?

Uh .. can't remember.

Think of the last person you kissed, have you cried in their arms?

No.

Now think of the person you kissed before that last person, did you cry in their arms?

No, I don't really cry in people's arms.

What's one thing you do when you're mad?

Clench my teeth.

When is the last time you saw number 2 on your top friends?

Who's number two?

Who's on your mind right now?

Nobody.

How do you feel about your hair right now?

I'm growing to like it.

Where were you at midnight last night?

Hanging out in my room.

How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you now?

Zero.

What does the tenth text in your inbox say, and who from?

"Haha its cuz you felt obligated to surrounded by all those nerdy people" - Nancy, regarding my studying habits.

Who was the last person you shot a dirty look at?

My sister.

Did anyone yell at you today?

More like angrily talking to me .. my sister.

Who did you spend your summer with?

My last summer? Gavin.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

Yeah.

What are you doing?

This quiz.

Most annoying thing in your life?

You're, your, their, there, they're, to, too.

Have you ever thought you liked someone and then found out that you really didn't?

Nope.

Do you drink water?

SHOOT! I forgot my water bottle at work!

Do you think someone is thinking about you?

Who would want to think of me?

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?

Yes.

What do you want?

To be in the top ten for the poster contest .. so badly.

What were you doing at seven this morning?

Checking my iPod for the time and going back to sleep.

Would you ever get a tattoo?

Possibly.

Are you stubborn?

Sometimes I am.

Do you have more than 1 best friend?

Yes.

Has someone ever called you beautiful?

Yes! It made me really happy.

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?

I don't look that far ahead.

Do you straighten your hair often?

Negatory.

Who did you spend most of your time with last night?

Cecilia, Maggie, and Julia! It was a fun time.

Do you like to make the first move?

No, I'm such a chicken!

Kiss with eyes open or closed?

Closed.

Do you like messages or comments better?

Messages.

What are you drinking?

Nothing.

Which do you bite more, your lips, tongue, or your finger nails?

My lip.

Do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden anywhere?

No I don't drink.

Where is your ex right now?

No idea.

Who did you talk to on the phone last/why?

Bronwyn, we were going to go watch a movie.

What are the chances of you having the person you like?

The same as being hit by a shooting star.

Do you think you'll have the same best friends a year from now?

I hope!

Are you physically weak or strong?

Strong, I think.

How many people could you not live without?

Most of them.

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?

Around the right people.

Would you go into public looking like you do now?

Uh it would look a bit strange.

Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your first name?

Allowed.

Where will you be in an hour?

In bed.

What makes you happy?

Mikalina.

What was your favorite childhood TV show?

I think it was Sesame Street.

Who did you have your last deep conversation with?

I think it might've been Bronwyn.

Do you enjoy late night conversations?

I never really have late night conversations.

Do you like your bed?

It is the best place in the world.

Do you know what you're going to wear tomorrow?

Uh no.

How many hours of sleep did you get yesterday?

Seven and a half.

How are you feeling?

Tired as heck!

Are you an argumentative person?

Depends on who I am around.

What kind of pants are you wearing at the moment?

Gym shorts.

What is the color of the shirt you're wearing right now?

Black.

What is the date two days after your birthday?

September 8th.

What is your least favorite color?

I don't really know.

Do you blow dry your hair?

Yes I hate leaving my hair wet.

Are there any products in your hair currently?

No I don't really do anything to my hair ever.

Can you see a stuffed animal from where you're sitting?

Negatory.

Have you taken a shower today?

Yes.

Are you one of those people who never drink pop?

No, I like pop.

Were you single on your last birthday?

No..

Are there any stressful situations in your life?

Yes.

Have you done anything stupid lately?

Not really.

Are you a loud person?

Around certain people at certain times.

Where is the boy/girl you like now?

Nonexisting somewhere in the land of nonexistence.

Were you happy when you woke up today?

Probably not, because I was waking up.

Where is your dad?

Downstairs, probably sleeping.

Would you date someone with piercings/tattoos?

Depends on what/where.

Do you trust all of your friends?

Only a handful.

Are you a rude person?

I don't try to be.

summer! summer! summer!

- Sled Island!

- Working

- Golfing at Country Hills

- Golfing at tournaments

- Folk Fest!

- Golfing in New Brunswick (hopefully!!!)

- Fam vacation in Vancouver

- Pictures!

- Friends?

listening to: burn 2 ash - chad vangaalen

i like to write

It's honestly the only way I feel like I can actually admit everything in my brain. There is just such a beauty in being able to express yourself fully without being interrupted, and without having to care about what others will think until two days later when you realize you're an idiot. Sometimes when I'm talking, I feel like such an idiot because I can't ever think fast enough to coherently complete a sentence, and I always stumble over all of my words. But anyway. I got my short story back, and I am so proud of it. I love that story so much, and I actually cannot believe that I wrote it. I want to show it to everyone, not because I want to boast it but for some reason I just want to keep collecting everyone's opinions on it, I want to create a small pool of others' thoughts. I've never felt so good about something in my life; whenever I do something, like take a picture or write a poem, I always look back on it and analyze it until I no longer like it. But this ... no. I just want to be acknowledged for something, I guess.

Tomorrow is the last day of school, I don't know what I feel about this. It seems like time ran out a bit too fast. I still want to see people and speak to people, but my summer already looks way too busy.

listening to: wake up - arcade fire

there's only a week left of school

I want to do one more issue of The Iconographer, and we gotta iron t-shirts and have a chem AP party still.  Man am I over my head.

Uhhhh I'm feeling good these past couple of days, mood swings are weird.  I got my film fest poster framed and presented to me the other day in front of my calculus class, and I went to my last girls' rugby game.  It's too bad they didn't win.  My design for the Calgary Film Festival's Youth By Youth Cinema got printed and I like it.  I finished my design for the Sled Island poster contest and now I just have to take a picture of it.  It's snowing so it's not likely that I will be able to go golfing.  Gavin and I took the train home together and it wasn't awkward.  What a strange week.

listening to:  breaking my heart again - aqualung