watching the gray sky that's acting like a good guy

It's the last day of Spring Break, and I'm pretty happy about how the week went. I mean, my teeth kind of hurt a lot, but I did a lot of stuff. My mom even complained about how I'm never at home, which isn't true. I'm home for the majority of the time, I just always go out at night or something.

I went to see Beauty and the Beast with most of the pit band on Wednesday. We went out to Nick's first and it was a pleasant time. Ryley didn't show up until our food showed up, and Lindsay didn't know that we were having dinner together so she met up with us when we were done eating. We all took the train downtown, and at Maxbell Theatre I ran into Katie when I was leaving the washroom, except I hadn't finished her birthday card yet (it was her birthday that day). Then I ran into her grandma, who was really sweet and we chatted until Katie came back. We talked about how the parking lot was full. After, I ran into Ms. Fehres, which was weird. We headed to the actual theatre, and I was talking to Lindsay, and ran right into a little girl because, well, I was talking to Lindsay so I wasn't watching in front of me, especially not downwards. I'm not sure if her mom yelled at me or at the little girl, but I'm guessing that she was yelling at me. I really didn't mean it! That's the second time I ran into someone when I was talking to Lindsay. I'm going to have to be on alert for little kids for the rest of my life, seriously. I felt really bad about it. The girl started crying and everything.

The show itself was amazing. The effects and the way they did everything was so good, except when you've done the show itself, you find yourself thinking about how it would've been better if they did it the way you did it instead. I thought a lot like that during the whole show. I really liked the way our school put on the show.

We made a whole new song on Thursday at band practice, which was wicked. I really like that song, it works well altogether. We worked for like two hours before finally losing it and getting distracted. After that I headed to Justine's house, and Kim, Justine, and I watched Sleeping Beauty and Cinderella to kick off our Disney movie night. After that, Bonnie came and we had pizza and watched Pocahontas. In the middle of Pocahontas, Alyssa #1 showed up. We watched Everything is Illuminated, which isn't a Disney movie, but my sister had rented it and wanted it to be watched by someone. It was good, it was funny, and I'm trying to read the book again because the first time it was kind of complicated, and I think now I'll understand it. Alyssa #2 and Kaitlyn showed up near the end of the movie. We had left Kaitlyn a lot of messages. Bonnie's imitating Kim was the greatest. "Tee hee hee!"

Friday was Kevin's game/camping out night. It was just Gavin, Megan, Kevin and I for the first couple hours. We played Super Smash Bros Brawl and I got owned. Kevin told us after that you could smoke Pocky, so we went out to his backyard with a broken lighter and tried, but the lighter didn't work so Kevin got us two boxes of matches. Smoking the Pocky didn't really work, but it was fun lighting stuff on fire. I tried to climb onto Kevin's roof, with Gavin's help, but after it got too scary and there wasn't anything to hold on to, so we gave up on that. We headed back inside because it was cold, and Megan and Gavin taught us how to play Killer Bunnies, which is a really fun game. While we were playing, Kevin's other friends finally showed up. They pitched up their tent in the back, and it was way too small for all of them, but later we learned that it was actually for their beer. We taught some of his friends how to play Killer Bunnies, and had the slowest game ever. Especially when I wiped everyone's bunnies out with the black hole. We walked to the 7-11 to get fudgsicles, and then watched Hot Fuzz.

Yesterday I worked, and it has gotten pretty busy at Golf Town. I'm getting golf lessons, starting next week. Nic accidentally rang someone's $3000 purchase twice, so that messed up things a lot. Halfway through the day, I got a text from Gavin saying that he was having a hot tub party. Cailey, Megan, Cole, and I played fooseball. Cole and I got owned the first time, but the second time we had a major comeback and actually won the game. We then played table hockey, which was ridiculous. Then Kevin and Alex, one of his friends from yesterday, showed up and played pool, so Cailey, Megan, and I played Golf (the card game). Then we all played Bullshit, and then played President, where Megan was scum for most of the time. We finally went into the hot tub, which was fun. Kevin and Cole are really .. wow. We stayed in the tub for pretty much one and a half hours, until Alex, Cailey, and Megan decided to go for a run .. just like that. When they got back they said that they ended up not running because their feet hurt too much. After all of us left the hot tub, Megan and Alex stayed in, and they just sat there talking ... so that was interesting. I had to leave, but apparently they stayed in the hot tub together for a long time after.

I had another band practice today, we made up two new songs and now I have a demo tape. Cool.

listening to: my moon my man - feist

guess i'm in love with the fucked up kid

I went out laser tagging yesterday with so many people I would normally not hang out with.  They're just not the sort of people I would hang out with.  But Aidan was  there, and Henry was there, and a couple other people I knew so it was alright.  While we were waiting for the first game to start, we played a bunch of the arcade games.  There was this weird game where you controlled a paddle that could spin and move around, and you tried to get the ball into the other person's goal by beating their set of paddles.  I lost.  Then there was this Percussion Master game, which I figured I would totally own Aidan at because, well, I'm a percussionist.  I got a C+ after "drumming" to "Hit Me Baby One More Time".  It was ridiculous.  But I still whooped Aidan.  We got to play three matches, and for the last one, Henry, Aidan, and I each grabbed a drum stick and each were in charge of one drum.  It was really fun, and we got the best score that way.  After that we played a gun game, and we were awesome at three of the missions, but failed the other three.  The helicopters were so hard to shoot down!  But anyways. 

After that we actually started playing laser tag.  Aidan, Henry, Hannah and I agreed to be on a team.  We were Starfox, and our code names were Fox, Frog, Falcon, and Falco, respectively.  Except when we got into the briefing room, the marshall told us that it was a solo game, and if she saw anyone teaming up, she'd separate them.  We teamed up anyways, for the first part but then we all got separated and I got owned.  Laser tag just isn't my thing, I guess.  I can never aim correctly!  

After two games of getting owned, we all went to Chinook for lunch.  We ate too much and then Henry and Hannah left to go around, so Aidan and I left.  The ride home on the c-train felt so much longer, but he said that it felt really short.  I caught the bus and found that my neighbour was taking it home too, and we all walked home together.  It was like elementary school all over again.

if it can be broke than it can be fixed

Wow. Kate's party was ... interesting. It's funny watching everyone be drunk while you're sober. Especially when there are people like Brittany, who "wasn't drunk", but laughed hysterically at everything that's happening. Brittany was very entertaining to watch. Robyn was acting extremely strange, even though she only had 3 .. or 4 .. or 5 coolers? And Kate was crying even though she said that she was fine, which was extremely weird. And Carmen's just funny. I hung out with Aidan for pretty much the whole night, we played fooseball with Elliot and Harper, and we hung around with Lindsay until she left, and after that we watched people play Twister and we danced with our really weird, unheard-of moves. Shauna found a old box of hats, and so pretty soon after that, everyone was wearing a funny hat. I got acquainted with some cool people, like Marianne, and hung out a lot more with people I didn't know very well, like Brittany! At one point we were both sitting on a sofa chair, and people were hula hooping extremely, extremely close, and Brittany was freaking out the whole time because it seemed so close to her! Ahh so yeah, I'm not a big fan of massive parties, but this one was okay. Except I was sick and I had a headache by the end of the night. It was still interesting.

we used to dream about girls who played guitar

All of this black ink is staining my hands.
None of the maps I've drawn work,
I don't know where I am.
These lines aren't straight enough,
they bend in the wrong directions
and I'm never where I want to be.

My fingerprints are smudging the mirror.
The glass is all cracked,
I can't see who I am.
These lights aren't bright enough,
they leave too many shadows
and I'm never what I want to be.

listening to: mardy bum - the arctic monkeys

i saw you singing with your hands, making shapes i don't understand

The concert last night was so beautiful. Kris Ellestad was extremely funny, with his water bottle and his spandex. The Norwegian dancing at the end was a nice touch. November Steppes was beautiful, although I wish he'd play The Secret too, but you can't always get what you want. After that, The Neighbourhood Council played, and their setup was really cool, and the music was loud and just washed me up from the inside. You couldn't help but love it. It was unfortunate that everyone moved in front of us, but somehow I managed to get to the front anyways, it was weird. But anyways. All of their sound combined together was just great, it's amazing how they are all only a couple years older than me too. The Ostrich played last, and Megan and Mikki had to leave right at the beginning of their set and a whole bunch of tall people moved in front of me and Leslie, where Mikki and Megan were standing before. But anyways. The Ostrich had a cool effect with a tiny television and an antenna, and every time the keyboardist moved waved his hand around the antenna, it make this really weird electronic sound, and they used it for most of their songs, and it was really fun to dance to because all of their songs were really fun.

And it's times like these I wish I was my sister. She introduced me to a bunch of her friends, who of course commented on how alike we look, and they all said something about the poster, which was nice. And she introduced me to Raphaelle, from The Neighbourhood Council, and she was really funny. She thought that our other sister would be really short, when that is definitely not the case.

When we got home, my sister and I stayed up and watched SNL for a while, and it was pretty nice. Although I sounded like an idiot the whole time, and my sister couldn't help but laugh.

listening to: only i - the neighbourhood council

i could be there, i could move town

All you need to know is that American Apparel with Megan and Diana was really fun, surprise parties are so awesome, there are good times with pinatas, sugar highs can lead to hilarious videos, and that people you don't normally hang out with can be really .. a ball of awesomeness.

Sequins and spandex is tomorrow.

the northern lights were out the night we went to your house

The Northern Lights WERE out tonight! It was amazing! We saw them after we watched James Bond at Mikki's house, after we ate pizza and hung around her kitchen and tickled Megan. It was after Mikki, Megan, Gavin, and Kevin walked Amelia home. Abbey left a little after, and then Tess, Ciaran, Cailey and I decided to go find them. We gave each other piggyback rides, and when Cailey was posing by a ugly van, Tess ran in to get into the picture but slipped from the gravel. We tried to hide from the others but they ended up finding us anyways, and then Gavin hit me with Cailey's shoe and I ended up owning him because he didn't have any shoes on and Megan stopped in front of him, causing him major pain. We decided to go to the UES playground, and the whole while there, Gavin stole Megan's shoe and was trying to put it somewhere she couldn't get it, so that was going on. Eventually, Megan ran into Gavin's elbow and got a bloody nose. We all climbed on the awesome playground equipment, and when all of us (but Megan and Mikki) were on the spider web, Tess noticed that the Northern Lights were in the sky. It was amazing. We stayed up on the web, watching the lights dance and move all around before climbing down and running to the field.

When the lights disappeared, Gavin and Kevin decided to climb the wall, and so Cailey and I decided that we would too. I was way too enthusiastic, and didn't notice the ice on the slope, so I ended up wiping out pretty badly. My arm hurt a lot. Gavin helped me up onto the top of the wall, which was pretty cool. After, when I was getting back down, I was dangling from the wall when Kevin got a hold of my legs, so I thought I was okay and dropped. Well, Kevin moved my legs to the side, and the drop was from a lot higher than I thought, so I ended up wiping out again.

We hung out in Mikki's kitchen again, and Kevin wanted to pet her fish so we spent probably a solid 10 minutes watching him try. After a while he decided to use both hands, and to move off all the rocks and stuff, and he finally managed to touch the fish for a second. He then showed us his Ziploc bag of quarters, $78.75 worth. Tonight was a really good night.

you were always weird but I never had to hold you by the edges like i do now

I went to the movies with Cailey today, I haven't hung out with her in a while, actually! We have so much in common. She's so cool to talk to, too! We talked throughout the previews, and the movie, and the other people in the theatre weren't that awesome; they kept laughing at weird moments, and they laughed too loud. So we laughed about that. After that, we walked to Starbucks and sat there for over an hour, just talking about people, and life, and just everything in general. I wish we could talk forever, she's the kind of person who I could probably do that with.

and they can try to put you down, wear you out

Untitled 2 is such a nice song. Just saying. Aidan and I were lab partners today, when we were experimenting with melting/cooling points and compound sizes, and it was awesome because nothing felt strained or anything anymore. I don't know what happened, but suddenly everything flows between us and just rushes, and .. it feels nice. We laughed a lot together, about clamping stopwatches to retort stands, retard stands, about getting the melting point right back to 69. During lunch we played with the broken stand, and talked about salad, and he accidentally knocked his container of salad onto the ground. He had the most hilarious yelp ever. And then we scrambled to pick up all the lettuce leaves. I was saying that I had to go to the bank, and he kept mishearing me and at one point he thought that I said "the Bay", at which he said he'd come too. Which went off to buying sweater vests with A's embroidered on them, for Allison and Aidan, or Awesome, or Amazing, or Apple-eating, or Astronomical, or Angry salad eaters, or Ass-kicking. We then went to go watch dodgeball to watch Lindsay's team play, but they got owned with a capital 'O'. B7? More like P7, for pwned! We went on a "mission" to rescue our backpacks (which we had secured to the broken stand) from the position Henry had put them in: in the stand cases. So, we elaborately moved the stand onto a stack of chairs, and then finally took it off and had a lot of trouble moving the bags off of the stand. It was a funny time. Then, I meant to place the stand firmly onto a chair, but it bounced weirdly and hit Henry, which could have broken his arm, but not really. We then realized that we could pull people on chairs using the stand, so I pulled Aidan, and he pulled me on it, and I laughed a lot today.

It was all the way it should be, like if some kind of electron moved back into place, no longer causing a temporary polar charge, and placing balance back in the world.

listening to: tbtf - kevin drew

that's why i never come back here, that's why they spit out my name

Last night I had three different dreams. I don't know if they were all related to each other, and I can't remember if I woke up between them, but I remembered two out of the three. The second one I had was really, really weird. I think I had a dream like it a while ago, with some variations. It might've had to do with all the videos I watched on Youtube yesterday.

The third one I had plans with you, and I was going to go through with them even though we haven't talked in ages. Then you gave me a call, and you talked in the stiffest, most resentful tone I have ever heard, as if you didn't want to say the things you said. You asked me if I wanted to go over to your house and have dinner. I said yes, but I remember feeling extremely sad about the way you said everything.

listening to: personal - stars